5 days and counting

Almost there....I'm really starting to get anxious. The feeling I have right now is a combination between that childhood feeling the days before Christmas (I WANT MY PRESENTS NOW)....and that feeling of butterflies as a new relationship is on the horizon (butterflies, anxiety, excitement, etc).

To Liberty: I'm so excited to meet you.....I haven't seen you yet, but I love you. You are my world...and I look forward to being a part of yours.

Love, dad.

(wow, did I just call myself dad? I know it's not technically true yet...but seeing that...writing that...kind of made my heart flutter...in a macho way, of course).

Worry is a Weight

I notice sometimes...when I'm feeling self-aware....that worrying about something, anything, can really take it's toll. I am the type of person who worries about everything. I worry about the baby...worry about work...is my heart beating too fast, is that car going to come over in my lane...get the point? I don't take pride in the fact that I worry; it's actually a little embarrassing & difficult to admit.

Me, a self-proclaimed bad-ass, that is worried about the smallest things. It's funny when I actually type that sentence. Don't get me wrong, I would be the first to run into a burning building to save a child...without thinking twice (but when I tried to fall asleep that night, I'd worry about what could have went wrong). I guess it's normal. I don't know....it's not something that you have conversations about with your friends - so who knows?

I know this...when I'm worried, I feel a weight on my shoulders. It's cliche, but it feels like I'm physically carrying a heavy load sometimes.....and I only realize it when the worry vanishes. Usually I'm able to stop myself...and think "you have nothing to worry about" - it's all in God's hands. When that doesn't work, praying really helps.

Anyways....enough on that rant. God bless.

Valentine's Day

Post Holiday Ramblings:

Why do I hate thee so? I don't know....but it's NOT because I hate love, romanticism, gifts....mushy stuff.....actually, I think all of those things are great....and people that appreciate their significant others in the form of gifts or love notes....or WHATEVER, are better for it.

What I do hate is that someone created a lame holiday so that I'll be guilted into "showing" how much I love my wife. AND, I hate pink....and heart shapes (unless of course it involves this little drawing I made on my table cloth during our valentines dinner at Jax on H.....but I do love those stale heart shaped candies. : )

That's it. Oh....and you may notice from the photo that the name is Liberty. Love it or hate it.....that's what we're naming her. : ) Well.....at least, until my wife convinces me otherwise.

It's been a while

I guess I've been in a bit of a funk lately. Well...NO MORE. I quit smoking last month...and I'm proud of myself. To be honest, I thought it would be harder to quit. For a few weeks it was....but now, I can hardly remember why I liked smoking at all. Go figure.

It's the beginning of the year...and many people are making New Years' resolutions. I've never really been one to do that...but this year, I seem to have climbed on the bandwagon. Not intentionally....I guess that my desire to improve myself seems to have coincided with the start of the year. I might as well embrace it.



The big news....BIG NEWS....Heather and I are pregnant. I couldn't be more excited. I love my wife more than this world can measure, and I can't wait to expand our family. In a couple of weeks, we'll be given the chance to know whether or not this large headed creature is a girl or a spoiled brat (I mean, boy).



Over Christmas, we shared the news with the parents...they were more than excited. Odd thing is that I'm excited for them....is that odd? It is to me...and I'm the only one that reads this, so there.

My New Years Resolutions:
• I'm going to be a better person - exercise more, eat better, curse less, go to church regularly...
• I'm going to be a better husband - listen better, help more, give more massages...more dates
• I'm going to be a better friend - keep in touch more, be more engaged, etc.
• I'm going to be a better manager in every way possible.

AND
• I'm going to POST TO MY BLOG more often....